im a fool

to my malek

2009-01-10T07:00:00.000-08:00

i miss you a lot

i am sorry if i have hurt you ,

i did not want us to fight anymore

i just want you to know that i really love you

I just hope things will work out between us not like my past relationships with certain people

i want to be there for you .

i don't want to quarell or let anyone in our way .

it just hurt me to hurt you .Maybe i did not tell you my problems when i meet you

its just because i was hurt once . pernah skali i was dump just because i was so over reacting when i had problems and that guy left me just like that . I just do not want history to ever repeat . I just did not want us to quarell about this but i realise in reality , we cannot run away from our problems , It takes two to clap hands , that's what you told me .I am trying my best to understand you .

love you bby........

2009-01-10T06:37:00.000-08:00

Dah lamer ehk peeps i never update this blog .It looks dead. I have been busy with things . I have been busy with my family , with my studies , with my friends and also with my boify . I just want to be my oldself back . Seriously my oldself .It is seriously irritating that certain people around me said that i have changed and bla bla bla ...paderhal 2, i just want my own space for now . I just hope you understand . I want to confessed that i did hurt a guy so badly due to our misconceptions . I apologise to that guy when he read this . I just do not want to hurt you and it is better if you forget me .I wanted to be there for you but i can't .
The picture above was taken on the day of countdown . ME ,malek sanchi,aisya ,adam, myra,bibo , dani,alep ,syawal and effy had our total fun . We arrived town at about 7+ and we walked towards the esplanade . Adam and syawal wanted to meet someone while the rest went to play pool at marina square just to waste time . So we did and we had fun . Then we went out .We sat and i was waiting for abg zul matrep . I just had a hug from him at that day , i just missed him so much I really syg him . haha lol...
We went to arab street , totally plan hancur just becoz of this person who kept us waiting . punyelah sot . walaowei!!! The guys went to buy minom and we wait for them at a place there . At about 1+, we isap shisha[ apape lah spelling dier ] and kiter aper lagi? KITER ENJOOOY !!!
k lol

I just miss my malek sanchi so much ...

Ouh btw , suhaimi superman , u still owe me sumtink ... pandai lari k , tkmao sembunyi

2008-12-07T08:08:00.000-08:00

I went with dating with him for today . We never plan much at first .I thought that we will just take a walk at town and just eat as usual but suddenly he ask whether i wanted to watch movie . So we walk to cck interchange , planning to go vivo .As we arrived there , we went to buy the ticket . The movie about BOLT is super cute and funny , i swear .After that we went jalan 2 and like just spend tyme together . gee i really love you hanaffi!!!

dar dpt gaji ah siol , baek per ,

2008-12-06T08:43:00.000-08:00

Fyna bby and me

I have been out with her this few days and it is like two days we have been going out . It is like date gytoo . hehe fyna , i knw u knw kn , Many things happen and we really share a lot about our problems this days .

I met my boify today and i was like fcuking missing him. He just finished his tournament and i met him at lot 1 and so we jalan 2 , of course i will kacao him and try to make him jealous tapi b nie smuer joke tau , i love you , what i say is all FAKE ....

Hehe , i love you syg .

To all my friends that i never met these few weeks , i am sorry but i was so busy with work and studies [k mcm phm ] , i will promise you that i will meet u guys one fine day , miss you guys ,

I JUST MISS LEPAK WITH MPH

tc aites guys !love ya

hubby i miss you

2008-12-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

I can't imagine if you are gone ,
I just miss you ,
I just need you b,
I love you too much

All the things that you have done for me and
A ll the memories that you have given to me will alwaes be
Remembered...

I just want to see you safe and happy .
I just want to feel your hug and the kisses that you have given
Me.

I love you b !

3 december

2008-12-03T07:05:00.000-08:00

Feel so sad about this coming 5 december .
I just miss him so much . I just hope he will be okay . b , i love you so much . Please reply me .

1st december

2008-12-01T06:12:00.000-08:00

It is already going to december . A month which i do not wish to enter .The first reason is that i do not wish to see 5th december .I just do not want him to have those punishments .The second reason is that i have not yet finish my homework and all my assigntments. The third reason i do not wish to go to school at 7 am every morning and look as if i am a zombie every morning .

Huby was so tired and sick today . I spent all my energy to massage his neck but his neck is still sore. He just need enough rest . Today mornbing was the best day i ever had . Huby , u noe ...i also noe , hehe , The secret is between us yeahs . I love my huby very much .

I just feel so like me today . I do not know why but i just know that i have found my old mardhiah this morning . I do not wish to lose my oldself ever again .
I just got news from khai .I was shock to hear about the news ,haish khai, i hope you will be okay inside and i wish you could go out as soon as possible . We miss you , khai
Whatever it is , i really want to meet fyna , syazana and those who i never meeet a long time or mention .

ska fest ferst day

2008-11-28T09:19:00.001-08:00

[M][E] AND [H][I][M]

I feel so tired after a day of going here and there with aisyah . We had a course for burger king and we thought that it will end at 11+ since it started early and we will have time to do some shopping , however we were informed that the stupid course finished at about 6 . After the course + test + assesment , we managed to finished at about 5. Off to bugis street !!! After we are done with our shopping, we met the others near the esplanade . ah they look so hot with all their suits . I love their dress up . I will post the photos tomorrow .

The guy beside me is my hubby .Like duh ... hee , just took this picture at the bus after going to the skafest. It was my first ever experienced to grind with him . It was such a sweet and memorable moment that i ever had in life .This is what happened.I was searching for him at the crowd. Then , i felt someone touched me at my waist . I quickly shoved it without realising it was my boify . He hug me tight and we like swaying left to right .

I miss syazana and fynabadot ! Tomorrow make sure you guys come eh ,

k ah mater pon dar ngantok so gdnite !

27 december 2008

2008-11-27T06:07:00.001-08:00

I woke up late again . It was already 11+ or ouh idk . i don't even watch the clock . Then i went to take a nice shower .Went to meet [h]u[b]i for awhile before he went to his friends house. I got to meet im for only 15 minutes before we went our separate ways.I planned to go town with khairul , nazirul, nazri and seri .I went to meet them just under khai's block . After salam-ing them , nazirul started to talk about dirty stuffs .Only kiter kiter jek tau .... hehe. As usual we went to buy kfc and ate . I treat seri to a meal and we enjoyed our meals . After eating , we planned to go to spore flyer .So pelan pelan we walk there .I had my fun there , just enough to release all my stress that i had this few weeks .[ Pictures took just now]

Happy birthday to nasrul!!! I just hope he will be okay and all his wishes will become true ....

yaps , thats all for the post

loves ,

mardeelm0

2008-11-26T09:15:00.000-08:00

Pictures that i took these past few days . Actually there is more but i so the malas nak post . I promise i will post them soon . Now tengah chat with syazana . I miss that gerl of mine . I just want to do one date .Only me and her . Okay , that sounds wrong ! I am so no a lesbian , hehe

duer duer dar attached seh !

Fyna badot ,where are you ?! I miss your silly and funny acts, your jokes,all the memories with you can really make me stand up and knock on your door just to meet you ...

I want to return your stuffs back ... i MISS you fyna , I hope u can tron town eh fyna!!!

I just miss the old days ,i miss my oldself ,

okay ah peeps , i want to go makaaan ,

loves , mardeelmo the cuteybello

27th november 08

2008-11-26T08:32:00.000-08:00

I feel so blue today ,
The colour that represents relaxing .
I have been very busy nowadaes .
I lepak pon tak lamer . Haish

I was so dissapointed and sad when cheeky told me the whole truth last afternoon . To the others , I really do not know what to say ... It is up to you guys to believe me or others .I will swallow all your hurtful words.I will continue with my life even if some people dislike me . I will just think straight and positively .

I will forever love this person beside me ,

Thank you for being there for me

Thank you for the hugs that you gave me

Thank you for loving me

I will always treasure you

I will always watch over you just like how you watch over me ,

19 th november 2008

2008-11-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS MY OFFICIAL DATE BEING WITH HIM.
I am just glad that he is there for me whenever i needed him . I will be happy with him . One more hour to go and it will be his birthday which falls on the 20th .duhh !!!
I really am not looking foward to 5 december . I really hate when people talk about that date . I just want to be with him and see the others just like last time. I hope that things will come back to normal and we will just lead our life happily just like last time . I did some stupid things which i have regretted.I just wish i can just move on and don't remember about the things that have happened .Hidop mesty mau happy !!! We must not be so stressed ...I f too stressed , later go imh ,haiya , I want him to online but he is just tired today.

My wish now is :
To find my oldself
Be a good daughter
Be a good wifey
Be a good friend
Be a very good sister
Make People Happy

In life ,there are a lot of challenges that we must faced . Without this CHALLENGES , life will
be boring, Ah whatever lah

Whatever it is dear blog readers , be happy and treasure those around you .

happy birthday to me !

2008-11-17T06:04:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me !

I just wish that he will be safe and happy .

I am so glad that he is by my side each day. His warmth that he had given me, his support that he have ever shown to me make me always feel safe to be by his side. I will always love him and always care for him. I just want him to always be happy and i will treasure him the way he treasure me. That is my wish for him.
[h][u][b][i], THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE and L0VING ME FOR WHO I AM!!!

I LOVE YOU !

Loved ones :
1][h][u][b][i]
2]farhan
3]aisya
4]fatin
5]mph
6]syamirah

I know that i have been changing lately BUT i promise that i will try to improve aites ?

I just need time . I really need it ....

17 sept 2008

2008-11-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

It have been sometime since i have last update .

Haish . i miss my kwn lepak

I miss certain people .

I just hope khairul, anwar, degil will all be okay .

I just miss khai's kecoh and all the fun he have created

I miss anwar's bello' and all the laugther he had given us .

I miss everyone .Every single people that i ever know . Every single people that i was with . All their memories will always stick with me.

but ...

I miss my old self .I miss my old mardhiah . The heck care person who will never follow what people want . I want my oldself badly . I really want to change . I want to be myself , storp trying who i am not . The only person who trully understand is my mom . Thank you mom , i love you very much !!!

Zulfattah pon nak ker australia , aku pon sedih seh tgk dier .. takecare kae abg !!!

I will update when i am not busy

11TH OF NOVEMBER

2008-11-11T07:03:00.000-08:00

My first post for this new blog .

I apologise to all blog readers as i have not yet fully construst my blog yet . I just came back from my outing with my godbrother and dear godsister.I went to vivocity with my godbrother , hanappi and we waited for syazana[godsis].
After syazana arrived , we went to the cineme and we debated on what movies we should watch ... Hanappi was bullied by us . k lols . After a lot of ruminations ,we decided to watch double[0][7].So yeah . Freezing like hell inside and naseb ah hanappi lend me his jacket which smells as if it have not been wash for a year but that is okay to me .The irritating part was my mom keep messaging me nonsense things and that gets me fed up . I found out that my mom went to irritate fatin and aisyah and i was so pissed off with her . I went to scold fatin without knowing what happen . I feel so bad right now . I just wish i can turn back the time and never say bad things to fatin . FATIN and AISYA , i am SORRY .
I just hope that you guys won't stay mad at me for long .I admit that i was too hasty and i am at the wrong .I should not have let go of my temper on you guys .

Farhan and ayie have surrendered at hq . I just miss them , khai and anwar . I just hope they will be alright .Tomorrow will be the day that han, dinni and cheeky g0 to sub -court . I just hope they will be okay and the thing will be postponing, I am scared actually. I am totally scared to see my god brother and the others to go and take their punishments . I just hope it will be okay .